I met a really strange woman today. She was kinda cool but a little creepy. She might of been a little psychic. She reminded me of my mom..who is kinda psychic…but anyway.
She was supposed to help me pick out my new glasses but instead just want to tall about my life. She was like its ok to be yourself, why aren’t you being yourself. I mean I’m talking to a stranger its pretty hard to be weird around strangers. But anyway She kept saying strange things and being like there’s a plan for you, you don’t have to be scared, you seem really frustrated with life right now but trust me it gets harder with age but you got this. She told me I can do better than who I’m dating and that my the person I’m seeing sucks lol which Is not what anyone wants to hear the day after they ask someone out lol but I feel her. I can always do better. She was so sweet.
Maybe I am really hard to please. I literally complain about everything. I mean I keep it to myself but sometimes I’m just like why the fuck doesn’t anything make me happy or content or something like what’s wrong?
Just had a severe case of mouth diarrhea but I think it was a good thing. Some things need to just be said, and being blunt is a specialty I surely possess.
*cries about my problems*
*cries about friends problems*
*cries about crying*
Its never easy to know what to say to people you love who are in pain
I appreciate everyone who like really cares about me and has messaged me/ texted me the past few days with kind words. I love you guys. It’s really sweet that people go out of their way to ask if I’m ok and what not. I have some great friends man.
And anyone else who is a selfish tool just thinking about themselves and pretending to be a friend or whatever while I’m going through a hard time can truly fuck off. that’s really it.
I’m so indecisive
I hate not knowing what to do
I just want to be like happy and chill
But I also want everyone else to be happy and stuff
Sometimes those things don’t correlate
And it really sucks
when I was in middle school/high school my mom told me I wear too much black and I needed to dress girlier and she really fucked me up because like I stopped wearing all black after a while and trying to be girlier but like I realized why the fuck was I even trying cuz that’s really just not me. My wardrobe was ruined for years tbh. Clothes I wasn’t even that comfortable in. Mom opinions weighs in deep dude.
Like at first I was like so should I wear band tshirts only if they have more color in them or like how do I girly??
Now that I really know what I like and I know the balance of girly I’m comfortable in, I need to go shopping but Im so broke man.
Didn’t think this day would be as good as it actually is.
wow i don’t feel good
anti-deppresants that make you fat. Isn’t that counterproductive?
The new medication I’ll be taking makes me gain weight like crazy. Last time I took it, I gained 30 pounds like in a really short time. I don’t want to gain weight. I am pretty happy with myself as is. I was the most uncomfortable with my body at that time. Being on this medication means I HAVE to exercise and watch what I eat. Fucking bullshit kid, I tell you what. I hate doing things =[
Maybe listening to this Coblie Caillat album isn’t the best idea. So many feelings.
Someone teach me how to play Begin Again on guitar please.
It really sucks that no matter how much I shield myself and emotions and feel like I have this hard exterior and what not, I’m still really nice to people who don’t deserve it and end up hurt. I care about people a lot more than I express or lead on. And people suck.